lavida

Night is about to come , stars and moonlight put a shadow under my window.. I close my eyes.. the story can start....
Once upon a time.... not at all!!!.. this is not a story we tell to the children when they're about to sleep.. It's just a nigthmare...My nigtmare.. Day after day I do think my life will change, but in fact it goes worse and worse because I 've got a terrble lack..
lack of hope, lack of love, lack of being .. I no more know what to say nor to think and dare to ask to the person I belive is my reason of being..
No, there's nothing I can hope.. my tears have made a river in the large desert field on which I walk alone now and always...Life is unfair.. Love is unfair..
Mother used to say "the one I want doesn't want me, the one who wants me.. I don't want him".. That's the truth and I have no idea how to change the way it could be .. maybe some different.. maye now.. maybe never...
"Hope is life.. but waiting is dying"... I just wait since a long time now... do I have to hope now or to end...